Sunday, October 4, 2009
Who Do I Think I Am?
I am at the heart of "dealing" with this right now in my own life. I am raising a wonderfully, high-spirited daughter, am wife to a supportive husband and all that goes with being a happy homemaker. I actually like doing dishes and cooking and keeping house. I love that side of my life. But I also love the other side....the side where I am just me, in my studio, I love writing feverishly, letting the ideas pour out without interruption. I love splashing about in paint bringing those ideas to fruition while jamming out with headphones. I love being in the flow and not having to take care of anyone else, aware of only me. Ideally I would have a balance, but that is not the case most of the time. I often have to steal moments here and there to myself. That is not a good feeling. I end up feeling deprived. But with a young child, what is a mother to do? I know that life is ever-flowing and changing and this phase won't always be, and probably I will mourn it as much as I have mourned previous phases.
So in the meantime, I will do the best that I can. I will make the time for my creativity. I will be open to opportunities to have time to myself and take it. Just like last night. That night out fueled me. I was exactly where I needed to be. It left me asking "Who Do I Think I Am?"
Shared by Shari Sherman