Shari Sherman

Shari Sherman

Friday, November 13, 2009

C'mon, get in the picture!

There is a quote by Maya Angelou that reads..."Ask for what you want and then be prepared to get it."
Well, I asked for a camera and a few hours later, got a camera! My friend Lisa and her hubby generously are lending me the use of one of their cameras until I get a replacement. At first, I turned her away because it doesn't have enough mexapixels for my artwork (I can't believe how spoiled I am!) But then, after getting a hold of myself I realized what a blessing! I can use it to get those candid shots that I've been missing for a week and for the updates here and.....for taking more pics of myself. It's amazing how one Wishcasting Wednesday can set you right on your path. Suzie made a comment about how maybe I need to get in front of the camera instead of behind it all the time. Get in the picture! Something about this just clicked with me, like the shutter on a camera! Thank you Suzie for checking my blind spot. She has an awesome blog if you haven't check it out yet.

I feel like yesterday I made the intention to set out on a journey to my dreams. And I am so thankful to all of you who surrounded me to give me the tools, information, wishes and encouragement to get there.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Feeling Lost and Wishcasting Wednesday

First, my camera died and I feel lost without it. I'm having a hard time getting over it. And I am finding it difficult to find a replacement. I guess that's how it goes when you really love something. I am realizing just how dependent I was on my faithful Canon, just how many moments I captured on a daily basis. It feels so weird to not post a pic with this post. We had to use an old Nikon film camera that Leila uses for our Halloween pictures. Needless to say, they are still in the camera....wonder when they will get developed. I am so OLD SHCOOL about so many things, but cameras are NOT one of them. There is such satisfaction of whipping out a digital camera, getting the shot, and being able to check it, right then!  I hope a new camera comes into my life soon....

And on a lighter note, snicker, snicker....It's Wishcasting Wednesday over at Jamie Ridler Studios and the question today is "What do you wish to dare?"

I dare to live my big life. I dare to really see what it's like to give it my all. I feel like I have held back in almost all areas of my life for quite a while. I have hidden. I have shyed away from being seen. I have even put on extra weight as a form of this. There are a myriad of reasons behind all of this and I am so introspective that they do not escape me. There are feelings of not being good enough...they won't accept me. There are feelings of being too good...they won't befriend me and I will be ridiculed.

I look back and remember times when I surrounded myself with people who chided me as being "Goody Two Shoes" or "of course, IT was HER, she always does great."(the latter, said snidely and overheard). For some reason, I got it twisted that these were bad things. That it was better to remain at a level not any higher than those around me. That if I rose higher I would lose something. That if I was better, they couldn't stand to be around me. I was too good. I know this stems from a neediness, from a placing value on what others think instead of how I value myself. The truth is I was just being myself way back then, before I was squelched. I wasn't trying to be better, I was just growing and doing at my own pace, before I learned that was wrong.

So, today, on this Wishcasting Wednesday, I dare to bring to the surface something that has been brewing for a good while now....I dare to be good! Really, really good. So good that I am happy with what I see and happy with what I do. I dare to give it my all in my art and in my life. I dare to be seen. I dare to live my BIG life!